In Hollywood McGowan was continually on display, and stardom soon became a personal nightmare of constant exposure and sexualization. She escaped into the world of her mind, something she had done as a child, and into high-profile relationships. She was supposed to be silent and cooperative and to stay the path. Instead, she rebelled and asserted her true identity and voice. This is her raw, honest, and poignant memoir/manifesto: an exposé about an entertainment industry built on systemic misogyny.-- Adapted from book jacket.

Introduction -- Child of God -- American girl -- Runaway thinker -- Brutality -- Captivity -- It begins -- Death of self -- Circus life -- Televised life -- Destruction -- Ashes to ashes -- Phoenix rise -- Cult of thought -- We are brave -- P.S.