"A personal story of depression, as well as a journalistic account of its role and ramifications in society today"-- Provided by publisher.

"Originally published in Canada by Random House Canada, an imprint of Penguin Random House, in 2019. First published in the United States in revised form by The Experiment, LLC, in 2020."

Cataclysm -- When you try to die and don't -- Psych-ward sojourn -- What, me depressed? -- When diagnosis makes you crazy -- Killing yourself is tougher than you'd think -- Know thine enemy -- Checking boxes -- Suicide blues -- Getting in trouble -- A pill-popping parade -- Good noticing! -- Zapping, shocking, and burning your brain into submission -- Brainiacs -- A dry pharma pipeline -- Old illness, new tricks : the electrode in your brain -- Old illness, new tricks : from psychedelics to smartphones -- Stigma and related bullshit -- Through the cracks -- Mental health is for rich people -- Trying to heal the littlest minds -- "More children do not have to die" -- Race as barrier -- Who you gonna call? -- How to talk about what we talk about when we talk about wanting to die -- Certifiable -- Trust issues -- First person afterword.