"A witty and one-of-a-kind debut graphic memoir detailing and drawing the life of a girl with borderline personality disorder finding her way-and herself-one day at a time. What does it feel like to fall in love too hard and too fast, to hate yourself in equal and opposite measure? To live in such fear of rejection that you drive friends and lovers away? Welcome to my world. I'm Courtney, and I have borderline personality disorder (BPD), along with over four million other people in the United States. Though I've shown every classic symptom of the disorder since childhood, I wasn't properly diagnosed until nearly a decade later, because the prevailing theory is that most people simply "grow out of it." Not me. In my illustrated memoir The Way She Feels: My Life on the Borderline in Pictures and Pieces, I share what it's been like to live and love with this disorder. Not just the hospitalizations, treatments, and residential therapy, but the moments I found comfort in cereal, the color pink, or mini corn dogs; the days I couldn't style my hair because I thought the blow-dryer was going to hurt me; the peace I found when someone I love held me. This is a book about vulnerability, honesty, acceptance, and how to speak openly-not only with doctors, co-patients, friends, family, or partners, but also with ourselves"-- Cook is one of over four million other people in the United States who has borderline personality disorder (BPD). She has shown every classic symptom of the disorder since childhood, but wasn't properly diagnosed until nearly a decade later on the believe that she would simply "grow out of it." Here she shares what it's been like to live and love with this disorder. Not just hospitalizations, treatments, and residential therapy, but moments she found comfort in cereal, the color pink, or mini corn dogs; the peace she found when someone held me.-- adapted from front flap Provided by publisher.

The blow dryer is full of souls and other facts in lists -- This is why I'm crying -- God circle -- Unreasonable times BPD told me I was being abandoned -- Show me a happy person and I'll show you a liar -- Not borderline as in "crazy," borderline as in "fuck you" -- Trying myself on -- The way she feels -- Ten months in Europe -- How sugary cereal keeps me alive -- A marvel -- Your body is a temple -- I googled "borderline personality disorder" and wanted to run for the hills -- I'd die for mini corndogs and various other obsessions -- A by-no-means comprehensive list of things that have scared me half to death -- Dear , I'm sorry I exist -- Oops, I'm bleeding again -- How caring for ailing senior pets helps me care for myself -- Ode to the psychiatrist I hate who gives me good drugs -- Sweet, soft life, I love you.